i saw a sad messiah. he was bored and tired of my laments.

Wed, 27 Feb 2008 03:33:40 GMT

so basically lately it seems like no one is happy. everyone is just doing what they can to get by. june 4th is going to be the happiest day of my life. i'll be even happier when i finally move out of this stupid place and be on my own. i'm such a fuckup. i'm just gonna lay low the rest of senior year and tryyyyy to have fun. my life has been a series of awkward events lately. srsly though people have been sipping way too much haterade lately.

Sun, 17 Feb 2008 23:14:01 GMT

i'm really proud of myself this week. i went to the gym 5 days this week annnnd did all my homework and only went to taco bell once haha. i just got back from the gym and i am really tired. i skipped the abs today cause i was too tired buuuut right when i was about to leave the hot guy that me and erin stalk at the gym walked in and of course my jaw dropped like it always does cause he is so freaking hot. so i stayed for like 5 more minutes and just watched him haha. last night was fun. me and lanester went to see step up 2 and it was a really fun movie. the acting wasnt super but the dancing was really awesome. there were about 34592 twelve year olds in the theatre but they werent obnoxious during the movie. afterwards we just got starbucks and then we raced on york road and i thought i was gonna die haha. i tried to watch saw 4 last night but it was so disgusting i couldnt do it. i think im gonna try again cause dinners not for another hour or so...or i could shower. no plans for tonight yet but who knows. off school tomorrow and then retreat wednesday-friday. should be a good week!

so just bend your knees and do the G5

Sat, 16 Feb 2008 17:13:36 GMT

so school was worthless this week. we had off 2 days for "snow" which was pretty sweet. last night was pretty fun though. stevie had a party so me delaney veronica emily lindsay and pooja went. of course there was a bon fire and of course some asshole almost started a forest fire. but we just hung out and drank beers and rocked out to jonas brothers. it was good times. i had taco bell last night for the first time in forever and it was delicious but i cant have it for awhile now. me and delaney didnt get home until 1 and i thought my mom was gonna kill me but of course she fell asleep on the couch waiting for me to get home lol. we watched good luck chuck...twice and chugged green tea at 4am while my dogs fought over a bone. good times. noooow were just watching hannah montana and im about to go eat breaky. no plans really for today. grocery store, nap, maybe gym? idk im pretty tired. oh and i got into roanoke :) i'm 5 for 5 with college so far im just waiting on 2 more letters from depaul and drexel. i reeeeeeeeally hope i get into depaul im SO nervous. wish me luuuuck!

and this jealous actress has a habit of making things sound way too tragic

Wed, 13 Feb 2008 04:34:15 GMT

i havent updated in quite some time probably because i just dont care. primary was today. i didn't vote but i am definitely gonna vote in november but right now it's looking like barack is gonna win for the democrats which is great because that's who i would have voted for buuuut part of me was kind of hoping it was gonna be hillary. a lot of people hate her but really can't back up why they hate her and it bugs me. let's be honest...anyone other than george bush has to be an improvement, right? although i seriously dislike mccain. i would just like to see something new. anyyyyyway on another note, i'm really trying to get my grades up. i got scholarships to duquesne and lynchburg and would like to prove to myself that i'm not going to fail out of college in my first semester. i'm terrified of that.

we had a "snow day" today. raaaandom. it's super icy out tonight though so maybe we can get another one tomorrow. that would just be amazzzing because then my bio test would probably not be on friday but who knows. i've been going to the gym a lot lately and my muscles are just so sore haha. i'm gonna take a break this weekend though. if we have off tomorrow i wanna do something fun. i've been working so hard lately, i just hope it pays off.

Fri, 18 Jan 2008 04:31:48 GMT

so i am dunzo with exams. i studied really hard this year so i hope they pay off. now i have a 4 day weekend that should be relatively stress free for once. my psych exam was 25 pages so that was exciting. i think i did pretty good though. i don't have much to update on really. oh! i got into a couple colleges...frostburg and lynchburg. they aren't really my top choices but hey at least i got in somewhere. i'm still waiting on the other SIX schools. ugh this is torture i just want it to be june 4th already. of course there's drama with senior week. i wish people would just chill out and go with the flow. not everything needs to be a drama-fest. i love snow! i'm gonna go drink hot cocoa and watch the real world :):):)

i see that tag wailing

Sat, 12 Jan 2008 05:13:28 GMT

i. hate. school. i cannot do well in bio 2, it's just impossible. i hate crying in school which i did today and i hate basically everyone. exams are next week. i'm gonna fail bio...no doubt. tomorrow i am spending the day studying with delaney and leah for espanol and bio somewhat. i'm not gonna go out this weekend cause i need need need to pass my exams. 4 day weekend next weekend and i plan on spending every moment of it drinking. oh and my birthday is almost heeeeeere =]

you already know i wanna love you

Fri, 04 Jan 2008 04:22:54 GMT

so i struggled with coming up with a reasonable resolution this year. sure, there are plenty things i want to change, but i know i won't so what's the point in setting myself up for disappointment? i think the most reasonable one is just to do things that make ME happy. i don't want to look selfish but i am just so tired of always being so depressed because i'm trying to make everyone else happy. that probably sounds bad, i know. i just need to enjoy my senior year. i mean this is our year. i'm turning 18 in less than a month. i'm graduating from highschool in 6 months. i'm going to college in 8 months. it's all happening and i just want to enjoy it.

hey jealousy

Sun, 30 Dec 2007 04:45:50 GMT

so christmas was goooood. santa gave me a bunch of new clothes and stuff and a pair of uggs so that made me happy. christmas was at my aunts house this year and that was fun. the food was very delish and i got some cool gifts. my aunt chris thinks i'm like 6 cause i get the most ridiculous gifts every year haha. this year i got a hello kitty purple bathrobe. it's pretty awesome. hung out with amanda a couple nights ago. that was fuuun. we saw juno and it was really cute and made me cry of course. went to the mall with her kiir and stephen and it kinda felt like old times but still not the same as last year. gahh last year was so much fun. i really miss it sometimes especially when i hang out with amanda. we visted stephen lutz at work and i miss hanging out with him too. i also really miss the core 4 from last year. getting drunk and going to shows used to be so much fun...so yeah i think i'm allowed out for new years eve which is good cause i'm ready to get drunk and blackout. that's how i wanna bring in the new year haha. as far as resolutions go...i don't have any yet. i usually make them and then forget what they were, but i think this year i'll take it srsly.

life's what you make it

Sun, 23 Dec 2007 18:40:52 GMT

so i really haven't updated in awhile because there hasn't been alot to update on. schools out, thank god. of course i'm grounded for the rest of break. ugh i never ever get grounded and this is like the one week i do not need to be grounded during. oh well. christmas is in 2 days! WHOA! i can't even believe it. i know a couple of the gifts i'm getting because i picked them out but i am really hoping i get a pair of uggs. so yeah my break is going to suck except christmas day because basically all of my friends are grounded, as am i. so don't count on any updates.

i hate this week.

Sat, 08 Dec 2007 21:30:53 GMT

alright so lets start with sunday....around 3 i went to the verizon store to get a new phone. took TWO hours for them to finally give me one. fucking assholes. didnt get to kiirs til like 5 which was dumb. made my shirt for brand new =] and then off we went! we ate pizza on the way and its very difficult to eat and drive. and it was raining pretty hard. so we finally get there and we go in and the first two bands play. they fucking sucked. thrice and me without you...idk. they were baaad. me and amanda saw someone we both love and of course probly looked like idiots haha. so we go down on the floor during thrice's like 3rd to last song. we just stood there and acted like assholes of course. finally they stop playing and we push our way in the middle. of course we are surrounded by sweaty weird dirty guys. and alison is so short she couldnt see anything haha. so FINALLY jesse comes out and starts playing play crack the sky. oooh my god i died. i started crying of course haha. its one of my favorite brand new songs...along with every other song they played haha. so they did a bunch of acoustic songs first and it was really cute. OMG it was so much fun when they played sic transit gloria and tommy gun. so they played a pretty good set. they didnt play quiet things or anything from your favorite weapon but thats okay. after the show it was POURING down rain. so we walk to the car and i drop alison and kiir and amanda off at kiirs house and then drive home. i thought i was going to die but i really didnt care because i was so happy haha. school this week was HORRIBLE. i hate hate hate school and i cannot wait until christmas break. of course i'm almost failing bio. fuck my life. all my other grades are fine but i just hate bio soooooo fucking much. i cant remember what happened in school other than that my speedball team is awesome haha. oh! and friday i stayed for the game and these black girls were like harrassing me and my friends and almost smashed in emilys windshield after the game. it was very scary. so after the game delaney and veronica came over and we just hung around and ate mcdonalds and didnt do anything really because cait got in trouble and had to go home. so i really hate my life right now and i don't think it's going to be getting any better. i just keep fucking myself over and making horrible decisions. i keep telling myself i'll do better but i don't. probly won't do anything tonight either. gen's having a party but i don't wanna go by myself. i went to the gym today so i feel a little better but i still can't help but feel so depressed all the time.

i fucking hate cell phones

Sat, 01 Dec 2007 20:59:12 GMT

SO i finally got my new phone yesterday. everything was fine and dandy until about 4 hours after i got it. it just turned itself off and would not turn back on. WTF. so that was really fucking annoying. so this morning i wake up and attempt to turn it on and it goes on. good right? so about a half hour ago it does the same shit. WTF. uuuugh cell phones hate me. i give up on them. so this week was extremely stressful. i had so much major shit to hand in and ive still got more to go. friday me, delaney, emily, and veronica went out. we went to taco bell around 9 and around 10 we visited alex at work and she said she was going to some party afterwards and that we could go if we wanted so we go and of course, annie bonner is there. WTF. on 4th of july she tried to get us kicked out of that party annnd im pretty sure she was doing it again. dumb bitch. so we hang out for an hour or so. play beer pong. left around midnight and went back to veronicas. woke up around 830 and took delaney and emily home and then came home and watched an eppy of friday night lights. had horrible cramps, slept for a good 3 more hours. im about to go to target with my mom and then idk whats up for later. i can either hang out with amanda kiir and alison orrr go to a party. idk but i might go to the verizon store and be like WTF.

fuck my life.

Wed, 28 Nov 2007 03:17:50 GMT

so let me just say, sunday night was maybe the sketchiest night of my life. heidi talks me into going to some "show" at the local highrise...new "venue". it was an abandoned building infested with rats. ew. her friend kyle was in one of the bands. their set was...interesting. so then me heidi and leah went to wendys because i was very hungry. so we sit and talk for awhile and then we go to this "after party." yeah okay. bunch of 22 year olds sitting around, still strung out on acid from the night before. my favorite part was the one girl who was high on acid telling the drunk girl that she has a drinking problem...yeeeah. okay. so i left around 1130 because 1) i was uncomfortable 2) it was the dirtiest house ive ever been in and 3) i sort of had to be home by 12 but not really. made it home by 11:55 and my mom didn't even notice. monday i watched awesome tv and went to the gym around 4ish. i love days off. today school was school and i hung around after school and watched some jv bball but mostly just hung out with laney and ron. dad picked me up around 6, went home and ate dinner, and then just relaxed. about an hour ago my mom decided to come home in a horrible mood and to bring down everyone in my household. i really love being told that im a disappointment and that im not getting into college. really its my favorite. i have NO MOTIVATION to do anything because i know im being forced to go to frostburg. and my parents really could care less about anything thats going on with me. two positives this week is i FINALLYFINALLYFINALLY ordered my new phone and resolved things with amanda. other than that i fucking hate my life and probably will until june.

boo you whore

Sun, 25 Nov 2007 01:18:54 GMT

shopping yesterday wasn't too bad. i got a new bra, some new undies, and new vsecrets sweat pants. i think thats all i got? oh yeah and i got new curtains that make my room glow blue =] got home around 7ish. nothing to do so i watched oceans 13 and greys anatomy...ending was so sick. woke up around noon today. went to the gym and then came home and hardcore cleaned my room. i was so productive! watched the notre dame game...they won! yay for winning more than 1 game this season haha. so they ended up with a 3-9 record. i'm about to go out to dinner with E because my parents refuse to feed me. tomorrow i am going to finish my college apps. that is my goal. and then i can finally just relax and stop worrying and i will let the chips fall where they may. i don't really have a 1st choice. i would love to go to depaul but idk if i'll get in AND it's in chicago and my parents are not thrilled with that idea. i'm sure they'll make me go to frostburg even though i don't really want to at all. idk once i visit all my schools i'm sure i'll have some idea. i'm also really really really done with drama. for good this time. i'm going to stop being so judgemental and i'm just going to let things go. i would just really love if everyone got along. i'm also sooooo done with associating myself with really selfish people. i don't need you in my life. i need good friends right now who care about me and who are actually there for me even when it's not convenient for them. i'm not going to accept being your friend when you have no one else around. i'm just so sick of being upset about it.

oooh black friday

Fri, 23 Nov 2007 19:07:47 GMT

i'm getting ready to go shopping...god knows why i would even want to on the friday after thanksgiving but i really really need a new phone. so let's see, monday and tuesday i had school. boring of course. tuesday amanda came over and we got taco bell and just hung out and she spent the night. then wednesday i had school until 12 and then we all got lunch at panera. so delicious. then i went home and got amanda mcdonalds and we watched project runway and layed around. took a quick nap and then went to wendys and took erin to the bar. went to a party around 9 with amanda emily delaney and veronica...which was a veryveryvery bad choice. ended up getting about 2 hours of sleep and then having to wake up early to go to turkey bowl. i didnt think i wanted to drink again so soon considering i still felt drunk from the night before, but i did. and of course i threw up outside the stadium. just like i threw up the night before haha. so turkey bowl was alright. it was like 70 degrees and everyone was in like their winter gear haha. saw pretty much everyone i know. mostly hung out with pooja and delaney. hung out with stephen for a bit for the firt time in forever. ate delicious meal that cost me like $15 so i could sober up to go home. SOMEHOW me and emily always manage to end up in the exact opposite of where we're trying to go. i accidentally got on 95 south as opposed to 95 north which would have taken me right home in like 5 minutes. instead i ended up in catonsville in 5 minutes and then took me 40 minutes to get home. WTF. idk how the hell we got in catonsville so fast. but yeah got home around 130 finally. napped til like 5 and then woke up and ate delicious food =] my aunt christine and uncle dirk came over for dinner. i love aunt christine shes so hilarious. after dinner we sat around and talked and played taboo and scattergories. it was fun. passed out around 11. now i get to go shop! yay.

But look, they're soulja boys!

Mon, 19 Nov 2007 05:33:46 GMT

i haven't updated in a while. school last week was school. i can't even remember the events other than rumors and stupid girls being stupid girls. i'll start with thursday. thursday-went to school until 1130. really all i did was watch a movie in psych and have a free period and then 20 minutes of bio. took a baby nap when i got home and did some laundry and finished packing. around 4 me, my mom, aunt kathy, aunt christine, genny, and erin went to the airport. we saw dottie when we got there so erin and gen chatted with her for a minute and then we checked in and got some sandwhiches for dinner. before we boarded the plane we were sitting like in our little waiting area and i see ms potts (freshman year math teacher). i was like uh wow random...i didnt expect to see anyone i knew going to dallas on a random weekend. and then the best thing ever happened. me genny and erin see the most beautiful group of boys in the land. the navy basketball team was on our flight. OH. MY. GOD. they were all SO gorgeous. i just can't even describe...of course i stalk my favorite one of the group on facebook now. DUH. so yeah i had been feeling sick all day and it was my first plane ride so i just felt that much worse on the plane ride. ugh i felt disgusting and i took a dramamine and passed out. we landed around like 9? i wanna say? idk but amy came and got us from the airport =]=]=] i missed my favorite cousin a whole bunch. me amy gen and E got sonic and went back to her apartment for a bit. she has some ca-uuuute puppies. an hour or so later we went and got some wine and beer and cheese and went to the hotel with mom and aunts. we just hung out and i passed out early because my stomach felt like death. friday i wake up and i still feel bad but i wasnt going to let that get me down. we showered and whatnot and went to this big huge liquor store and my mom has fully accepted that i drink so she was ENCOURAGING me to actually. it was nice. we got a bunch of yummy liquor and then we went to the SPA. amy surprised everyone with a spa day =]=]=] we all got manis and/or pedis and massages. so amaaaazing. i got a pedi and a massage and it felt GREAT. we basically sat around the spa and drank and got pampered all day. we had dinner reservations at 8 so we decided to go drink some more before that haha. we went to some bar and got margaritas. wow its fun not getting carded when im only 17 but hey it was my moms idea for me to drink, too. so we had a couple of margaritas and then we went to dinner. we ate at a nice tex mex food place with a cute waiter. once again my mom encouraged me to drink so i ordered a margarita and didnt get carded again =] so im still feeling sick and the drinking isnt helping and the fact that we decided to do shooters didnt help at all. so hilarious-we were asking our waiter what some good shooters were and he was like "well the bartenders favorites are buttery nipples and royal _____" and none of us really heard him so we were like "wait a royal huh?" and he was like "a royal fuck" and that time most of us heard except erin who asked him to repeat it again and by this point hes yelling royal fuck at our table while we laugh hysterically. so we get these royal fucks and everyone downs them and im like oh lord im already sick but i drink it anyway and then by that point i cant even think about food so i dont get to eat. by this point its like 9 and i had been drinking since like 3pm with nothing in my stomach. then after everyone ate we did ANOTHER shooter. this one was more delicious though. it was a pineapple upside down cake and it was very sweet. so i had 2 margaritas and 2 shooters in me by this point. i was drunk haha but all was well. after dinner we went to the restaurant where amy works. its like this big fancy restaurant in dallas called fearing's. its a big deal around there idk but yeah everyone was drunk, rich, and dressed up. so needless to say we all felt put of place being poor and in jeans. so yeah we left after like 20 minutes of touring it and went home. saturday i woke up feeling horrible again. we went out to lunch and i ate nothing once again because my stomach wont allow me to. then we just watched the notre dame game(they actually won! woo go irish!) and napped and got in the hot tub. then we watched tila tequila and had silly family time. passed out around 130. today we had to fly back to stupid baltimore. got mcdonalds breakfast and i managed to consume coffee and hashbrowns. great success! dropped my coffee everywhere of course. no big deal though. ms potts was on our flight back as well haha. flight back was MUCH better. i slept a little bit but mostly just read my book and magazine. such a fun weekend. i love my family so much and they are just hilarious. i'm so glad i don't have one of those families where i have to be a completely different person around them yanno? i can just be my stupid alcoholic sarcastic self. school tomorrow. LAME. cant wait for thanksgiving and turkey bowl!

we have to take our clothes off to have a good time

Mon, 12 Nov 2007 00:57:43 GMT

what a weekend. friday me, cait, veronica, delaney, emily, and tina all went to stevies where we actually had fun. i thought i was gonna be bored and cold the whole night but i was mostly just cold. emily agreed to drive my car home sooo of course i got shitfaced. sketchy crack heads were there and they drank everything...not cool. got taco bell on the way home of course. got home and im pretty sure my mom knew i was drunk which was not good cause she thought i was driving but nbd. saturday went to my aunts house all day for my other aunts surprise party. i love my family. ate tons of delicious food and got in the hot tub later =] today i slept until 3 (oops!) and totally missed mercys open house. oooh well. went to target with e and taco bell again of course. im gonna go rent a movie and snuggle. no school tomorrow! maybe i could work on my research paper? nahh...

you're the one that i confide in

Thu, 08 Nov 2007 03:16:25 GMT

so i am officially cold with nancy. she gave me a c- on my report card and i don't understand. and she told veronica that she might want to consider getting a new lab partner. fuck you ms uryasz, i'm not stupid. ugh i work my ass off in that class and it gets me nowhere. my other grades were shitty too and i just really want to do awesome this quarter. so that's my goal.

you can be my black kate moss tonight

Tue, 06 Nov 2007 02:18:37 GMT

today was pretty worthless. spanish was ridic. we watched a movie and our sub told us to do whatever just be quiet so i ate and did stats homework. i had to stay during free because i didnt drive today and i had no ride home so i just sat with the volleyball team basically + best friend and for some reason some sophomores were giving us dirty looks so i called the girl a bitch and she heard and got pissed and i was like well...maybe dont give people dirty looks? yeah? natalie took me veronica and heidi home so of course we went to taco bell. then there was a slightly embarassing encounter outside of heidi's house. IT'S BEEN 2 YEARS. LET IT GO. i have some psych and bio homework to do but its pretty much nothing. alright time to go watch the ravens even though steelers already have 2 touchdowns...

you have the ears of a motherbird

Mon, 05 Nov 2007 03:34:47 GMT

so yesterday was interesting. tina picked me up around 4 and we went to villa julie to watch the volleyball champs. mercy won! it was a great game. afterwards we just ended up going to taco bell and eating a shitload of food. it was delicious of course. then we went over emilys and just sat in tinas car and talked for awhile and jammed out. tina dropped me off around 930 and then i had to take erin, rachel, and april to fed hill which was not fun. i really hate driving without a cell phone especially when i'm lost in the city and have no idea of how to get home. i somehow managed to find harford road though haha it was a miracle. so then i just relaxed and watched tv until around 2 when i had to go pick them up. and technically it was like 3 since they set the clocks back an hour. so the drive home was pretty hilarious with 2 dogs and 2 drunk people. "hey! hey! this is molly! say hi to molly!" "...hi dog" "her name is molly you asshole!" erin made me pull into a gas station parking lot so she could pee. she literally almost peed on a homeless man...scary for me but apparently hilarious for her. make a quick trip to mcdonalds so the two drunks can eat and get home around 3:30, normal time. i watched some of love actually(my favorite movie ever) and then fell asleep. notre dame lost yesterday and i nearly cried. not like losing is a new thing for them this season buuuuut it was to navy who they hadnt lost to since like 1964 or something. the game went into THREE overtimes and they ended up losing like 46-44 or something ridiculous like that. today was boring. i just laid around and read and watched tv. i'm gonna attempt to finish watching spiderman but it keeps getting stuck on one part. this week is going to go by sooo slow. ugh.

today could be a good day

Sat, 03 Nov 2007 18:25:23 GMT

today was the first saturday where i woke up without a hangover in a very long time. it's nice to not feel like i'm going to die and to not waste an entire day watching an americas next top model marathon. although there is one on today and it is very tempting...anyway so mercy volleyball team is going to the championships todayyyy at 5 and i'm so proud of them. tina's picking me up around 4 and we're gonna head over to villa julie and paint our faces and be all spirted like the rest of mercy haha. idk what we're gonna do after the game but most likely just grab some dinner at applebees or something haha. school went by fast this week and i'm glad i have a weekend to catch up on sleep. i think i'm gonna go to the outlets with mama and erin tomorrow and get some cute winter clothes =] i want to do college apps but i'll probly save that for next week. i want them in by the thanksgiving deadline! i'm really fickle when it comes to bio and ms uryasz. somedays i really hate her and everything about bio. otherdays i'm like "wow, you're actually a good teacher and this is kind of interesting." i guess we'll see how my report card goes and then i'll decide...US weekly just came so i'm gonna go cuddle with my dogs and read that for a little bit.

happy halloween!

Thu, 01 Nov 2007 01:01:20 GMT

so this holiday is usually pretty fun, but this year it was just eh. school was blah. bio sucks. ms uryasz fucking hates me and makes it blatanly known to the world. lots of people were dressed up and there were some pretty cool ones. after school me and rach went to taco bell and the varsity volleyball semi final game. mercy won!! i'm so proud of my girls. championship is saturday night and i'll probably go considering my bests are on that team and they deserve this so much. came home and dressed the dogs up in their costumes! lily is a ladybug and molly is spiderdog! =]=]=]=] they looked freaking adorable. i got ambushed by some kids while handing out candy and lost like 3/4 of the bowl. oh and i was kinda pissed because i wanted to wear my banana costume but freaking jay has it and wont give it back =[ so pretty normal day. i have about 35020 hours of homework to do and since gossip girl is a repeat i guuuuuuess i can get started. hm also i saw someone i hadn't seen today in a like months and it kind of made me nautious. i don't understand why my sister is such a fucking BITCH sometimes. she acts like she is the most selfless person in the world and it pisses me off so much sometimes. i'm so fucking tired of being put down constantly and of people making me feel absolutely worthless all the fucking time. i need to get out of this fucking place.

the thought of rusty poons against my salad fingers is almost orgasmic!

Wed, 31 Oct 2007 02:37:46 GMT

thursday-half day, went to the mall/bank, got my 2nd hole and my cartlidge pierced. my ears and swollen and gross haha. mmm so my weekend was eventful. thursday night me and kiir drive up to west virginia to visit amanda at shepherd. of course it's raining but it didn't take too long to get there. so we get there around 930 and i catch the end of greys and then meet all of amanda's friends. they're real nice. we went to sheetz where we got shutdown. stupid sheetz people wouldnt let alison use her coups, and i wanted to throw a fit. instead we went back to the dorm and wrote an angry letter haha. fucking leona and dj...stayed up late watching silly youtube videos and doing nothing. watched like 20 minutes of 28 weeks later, and i fell asleep. woke up around 2? and amanda's friend was in there and i was like oh...awkward. wake up friday around 12...amanda skipped her class and we got lunch. well breaky actually. hung around the dorm and watched antm most of the day. went out friday night. played kings, drank too much captain and ginger ale haha. i blacked out of course and lost my phone somewhere in sheetz or i dont know where. saturday slept until noon, went to the shepherd football game and then grabbed some pizza. around 5ish me amanda kiir and a bunch of amandas friends headed back to baltimore. made some stops on the way home and finally got to emilys around...8? idk. got dressed. everyone was cute and slutty. did jager bombs and chugged beers...it was fun and surprisingly i didnt get wasted wasted. there was some drama but everythings good now. lots of funny quotes and times haha. stayed up all night being silly and took amanda and a couple of her friends back to west virginia sunday morning. got home around 1ish, watched hannah montana and took a long nap. i was short because im tired and have to do stats homework.

Wed, 24 Oct 2007 00:01:25 GMT

i'm so excited for this weekend! visiting amanda thursday-saturday with kiir and then em's halloween rager saturday haha. i'll be so relieved when tomorrow is over and done with...big bio project due, bio test, and psych test. sweet! updates when something more exciting happens.

oh and i'm being a fairy for halloween! actually basically just a glitter slut with wings!

i just dribbled in my pants a little bit

Sun, 21 Oct 2007 23:49:43 GMT

so last night was even more random than friday night. picked up veronica natalie and delaney around 7ish and there was some confusion about where we were going...we don't communicate well as a group haha. so we drive up to perry hall because we wanted to go to perry hall mansion buuut we don't know where it is haha. we tried to go to jericho bridge but it was closed and we were kind of terrified. i would have gotten out and walked but i didnt want to leave my car. then we were just driving around and i was like okay i'm gonna turn around so i pull into st stephen's parking lot and theres some kind of like a church haunted walk through thing idk jen ware was there though and we had just been talking to her so that was random and funny. then we left after like less than 10 minutes and drove to some other church where we saw some person walking around in a mercy softball hoodie...sketch much? so we walked around in the tiny little graveyard. then we heard a siren and we werent sure if it was illegal to be in a graveyard at night so we ran back to the car and peeled out haha. so we're trying to find a party and allie informs us that her friend is having one so we drive to 711 and i get cash, then stop at mcdonalds real quick. then we go to rofa to get some red bull and then finally head to the party at like 930. nats drunk by the time we get there so that wasnt good. party was alright, would have been better if i could have gotten hammered. leave around 11 because we had to get nat out of there and we stopped at bk on the way home because she needed to eat something but she ended up not being able to. get home around 12, delaney spent the night and we watched the tila tequilla show. hilar. i would tell more buuut i'm too lazy. today was my uncle's birfday party so me and e headed over there around 2 and ate food and hung out with amers. it was fun. i'm gonna go do homework and sleep!

how many slurpees do you want?

Sat, 20 Oct 2007 21:50:12 GMT

so yesterday was fuuun. school was whtvr. around 6ish me and erin headed over to genny's to go to jason's woods with her and charley haha. we stopped 3 times on the way for some reason but eventually made it around 830ish. it was pretty damn scary i must say. the hayride was okay, scariest part being having a chainsaw shoved in my face. the barn part was terrifying though and the pirates thing would have been cool if we hadn't ignored the part where we're supposed to wear 3D glasses haha. we were walking in and the lady said "glasses are in the bin" and for some reason we all just completely disregarded that comment and then after it was over we were complaining about how we got ripped off because they didnt give us glasses. then about an hour later we realize they tried to but we just ignored them soo it turns out we're the assholes actually haha. leave around 945, stop at cracker barrel on the way home DUH. me and E are so silly, i love being random and loud with her. got home around 1230 and headed over to veronicas. get there and her, laney, and natalie are all drunk and high. decide we wanna go to taco bell, stop at 7-11 on the way there so i can get a slurpee, and then get tb. i didnt have any cause i had just eaten a huge meal, but they seemed to enjoy it. i love driving around blasting vulgar rap music with my friends. get home around 2ish, watch some of 300, and then i pass out. today was just been blah so far. i think my moms mad at me for something but i cant put my finger on it...idk i hope she lets me go out tonight otherwise ill go insane. irish are playing USC right now and losing 17-0 in the 3rd quarter. fuck USC...i hate that stupid school. so tonight me natalie veronica and delaney and possibly pooja are going out and idk what were doing. perry hall mansion? party? who knows but i'm sure this night will be random.