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Today I went to my bank to take care of some crap wrong with my bank account. A wonderful women named Carol was my bank representative.

Because of the overload of the holiday season, their computers were running pretty slowly which gave us some time to talk. Seeing my direct deposit was from CBS Radio she asked what I did, I explained that I do promotions which she said sounded like a lot of fun.

She asked about school, and I told her I went to UMBC and I was a Marketing major, which she said was fitting for me. I told her I loved my school and my jobs, and that they look great on my resume.

Then I thanked her for being so nice to me, and confessed that I was dumped last night. She, sounding astonished asked how long we'd been together, and I told her only about a month and that we weren't official, but we'd seen each other 3 or 4 times a week for that time.

She then said that was still a big deal, and that he doesn't deserve me. She said that he made a big mistake, and couldn't see why any guy would let me go. She said that a girl as ambitious as me can be intimidating to some men and I need to find someone that can handle that. She also said, she didn't mean to be cliche but she's a mother and knows that when one door closes another opens, and she's certain that something better will come along for me.

I thanked her so much for everything, hugged her goodbye and skipped to my car. This women, whom I've never met before was so nice to me, and I appreciated it so much.

I have the ability to make people really like me when they first meet me, I'm charming and charasmatic and all those other wonderful adjectives that make me great to be in marketing. Unfortunetely, the novelty wears off fast and people get sick of me, so for the most part I'm usually a fun temporary distraction, like a trendy Christmas toy.

For someone that likes consistency, that makes me really upset, but I've gotta roll with the punches, knowing each person I connect with I'm only going to be with for a short time be it friend or more.

Obviously, there are exceptions to this rule, but I think about the people I spend the most time with and how different it is from a year ago, or even six months ago. I used to need reminding a lot that people like me. It took a long time but, I finally understand that people really do like me but only for short periods of time. I feel like a person with a warning sticker stressing that long-term exposure could be hazardous to your health.

So in this new year, I'm setting out to find some more consistent people in my life, or maybe I need to figure out how to not have my novelty fade so fast--how to make people still like me months after they meet me, as much as they like me when they first meet me. This seems like a really odd problem to have. Anyone have this issue also, or have any advice?

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So I went out with not-boyfriend on Friday night, and he wanted to honk my horn while I was driving just for fun. He also wanted to go write in some wet cement we saw downtown, which I told him "you're too old for that."

I don't know if he noticed or not, but I realized, I'm not fun. Think Squidward or the dad in Finding Nemo. I don't enjoy doing silly useless things like writing in cement or playing in the snow. Come to think about it, the boyfriend I had at age 14 often told me this subtly, and he preferred hanging out with my best friend because she liked playing sports and running around. I was always very resentful of her.

I grew up very fast, and never had time for childish things. I do enjoy dancing, singing and things along those lines, but I find that I'm often trying to relive the childhood I never got to accomplish. I guess board games aren't as much as tackle street football, but I think dancing on bars are a lot more fun than playing in the snow.

When I was at Matthew's place on Wednesday night we did have a tickle fight, which was something I normally would never do. I'm actually not that ticklish but Matthew is very ticklish so I thought it was only fair to play along. I've never been that type of girl, but Matt really likes this kind of silly fun, and I am willing to oblige as much as possible.

Matt also really likes Will Ferrel movies, his favorites being Anchorman and Talledega Nights. I don't really do comedies, my close friends explain this to others by saying... "I don't like to laugh." Even as a kid I remember having a computer, not many toys at all. I think I've been programmed to not like fun.

I know so many guys in relationships with girls and everyone thinks, why is he dating her, she's so boring or she's such a bitch. I hope I don't become that girl... I hope Matthew can deal with me being really boring, or at least can help me be less so. He might be the type of boy I need, someone that will help me have some silly fun once in a while, so I stop growing up so fast. He can be the Spongebob to my Squidward :)